Freewriting Assignment. Tuesday, June 26

David Smith - Freewriting 1
June 26, 2012

Topic: College is difficult!

I first started college in the year of 2006. When I started, my friends did as well. We had a lot of fun at the start. I was one of the unfortunate ones who dropped out. I had no specific reason, I just wanted to have fun since I graduated from high school. It turns out, that was the worst mistake of my life. I did not drop any of my classes, and it hurt me badly. I stopped going to school within two months in the semester, and my grade point average dropped to 0. I continued to have fun for two years after I dropped out and I soon realized that I needed to get back into school in order to make something out of my life and to get out of these mediocre jobs. I tried to go back, but they didn't allow me easily. I had to do a lot of paperwork, and had to visit my old high school to have some people sign things for me to prove I was there. I went three years trying to get back into school. I even offered to pay someone to help me get back in, and the staff kept having me run circles. I had to get the same papers over, and over again. I was never sure why, but I couldn't argue with someone who worked there when I assume they know best. I finally got back into school in 2011. I was nervous! It was my first time back after six years of hassle. I suffered a lot, but I knew it was worth it. I was informed that I can not fail any classes while attending Ozark Technical Community College, or I would fail to receive financial aid. I am still puzzled on why to be honest. My first semester at college was paid for by my parents. They now refuse to pay and I can't afford it on my own. With the knowledge of knowing I can't fail a class isn't motivation to me, but a ton of stress. I am now on my third semester at school and luckily, I haven't failed a class yet. I've picked my grade point average up from an F to a C in two semesters. This wasn't an easy task. I have received mostly A's in my classes. I talked with the people in student services and they were not going to budge on letting me slip. If I fail a class or drop a class, I can't afford school anymore. I can't help but wonder how this is fair to me? I am not asking for hand outs. I am happy taking loans that I will pay back. Regardless if I pay back or not, the rules are the rules. I am still hoping for the best and trying my hardest to succeed. I plan on transferring to a four year college to obtain my BA. I am hoping that I don't carry this burden throughout my BA as I am for my AA. I have a roommate who started school when I did, but he didn't drop out. He is gaining his bachelors this up coming semester. He has failed a few classes and dropped a few. His grade point average isn't any higher than mine. We actually have close to the same within the range of a C. He, however, has never been threatened with the stuff that I have because of the one mistake I made back when I was eighteen years old. I'm nervous because I have math 130 next semester, which is my last math class, and I heard it's very hard. I know a few people who told me they failed the class and had to retake it. I am not horrible in math, but I am not too great. I fear they will see my fail it and cancel my student aid. If that was to happen, they would be preventing me from graduating the following semester.